Testimonial: Princess and The Pee
written by wimpyi love pee play. In fact, one of the main reasons that i originally sought out to serve Princess was Her own affinity for pee play. Pee play takes on so many forms and transcends so many aspects of Dom/sub play. It can be used as humiliation and reward, often at the same time. It can be a bonding experience and even a spiritual one. Princess pee play is perhaps my favorite activity with Her. With so many variations and applications it is no wonder that in the hands of a creative mind like Princess Kali's that pee play with Her is always a wonderful experience. It saddens me terrible when i am around Princess and She uses a porcelain toilet instead of me. i would so much rather have every drop of Princess pee either in me or on me.
Background
my first exposure to golden showers was during the height of puberty, and on main stream television no less. Does anyone remember the TV miniseries Shogun from the early 1980's? There is a scene in which the main character after telling the Japanese Lord "piss on you" is ordered to lie on the ground where he is in turn pissed on by the Lord.[1] While i was much too innocent and naive at the time to associate the act with any kind of sexual deviance, it obviously had a huge impact on shaping my submissive desires as i still remember the scene vividly today. i remember thinking how humiliating that was and i must have retained a curiosity about the act, so it shouldn't come as a surprise that i have turned into a bit of a humiliation junkie as a submissive. i often wonder how much that scene shaped my sexual deviance.
It was at least 15 years later when i started exploring the wonderful world of female domination, and i have had experiences with several ladies before i was blessed with becoming Princess's property. Three of those ladies played a significant role in developing my love for the dominant woman's pee and a fourth had her own original approach to pee and domination. i will refer to them by initials often throughout this piece. C was the first female i ever played with and helped nurture my submissive tendencies. ML was both my first and last owner before Princess (i served two separate terms as her personal slave and property) and the woman to introduce me to the joys of being pissed on. L was another owner (in between my stints with ML) and V was a regular playmate, both of whom expanded on the role pee played in my submissive psyche.
i would also like to share the story of how i came to serve L. L was a stripper at a club i frequented. She always seemed genuinely nice (as opposed to stripper nice) whenever i tipped her. One day i asked her to join me for a drink, something i never do with the girls. During our very first conversation, out of the blue she asks me if i have ever peed on anyone. Once i got over the shock i honestly replied no but that i had been on the other end. This quickly led to a discussion on female domination which she wanted to explore and a beautiful new relationship was born all because of pee.
Marking a Slave with Her Scent
It's quite amusing to me when i look back at how far my limits have expanded since i first began exploring the pleasures of submitting to women. In those early days i had lots of limits (as opposed to virtually none now), and golden showers was definitely on that list. However, once i entered into a full time slave position with ML, there was a constant desire to submit further and further to her to prove my devotion. i can not be owned by a woman unless i trust her completely, and as such once i become the property of a woman, i effectively forgo all limits, trusting in my owner that she will not push me beyond what is safe for me both physically and psychologically. When i became owned by ML, the subject of golden showers was never discussed as either a desire or limit of either of us. And while i had no inkling that this may be a desire of hers, i began to develop a fantasy and intrigue about the subject. However, despite my curiosity, there was also a part of me that kept thinking sometimes it is better to leave fantasies as fantasies because often times the reality can never live up to what the mind creates on its own.
With that caution always on my mind, i never brought up the topic with ML, so i was quite shocked when in the middle of serving her one day she ordered me to hurry to the bathroom, strip and lie in the tub. She never told me what she had planned, and while i had a pretty good idea, another part of me couldn't believe that this was about to happen. As ML blindfolded me (i was never allowed to see her naked) the anticipation was growing by leaps and bounds, but the fear that the reality may not live up to the fantasy was also building. Up until that first splash hit me, part of me could not believe that i was going to experience this, but from the moment her hot spray caressed my body, my penis sprang straight up as hard as i can ever remember and i was hooked. It felt so wonderful and warm, far better than i ever imagined. As ML straddled me, emptying her bladder over me, she explained to me that she was marking with her scent just as wild animals mark their territory with their urine. i was ordered to lie in the tub of her essence for about 10 minutes, and was not allowed to bathe for the remainder of the weekend. i was to wear her scent all weekend long which she refreshed several times, and by Sunday i was begging for every last drop to be sprayed on my body. i never felt so owned and special. It is truly an amazing experience to be marked in such a way, to feel so devoted and owned, and to submit so thoroughly. That was such a defining moment in my submissive life. i knew then that reality could exceed fantasy. It was at that moment that i erased all my limits, and instead put full trust in my owner.
Ever since that first piss marking, i have been totally enamored with the concept of a woman marking her territory (me) with her piss. The few times i have been lucky enough to receive Princess's precious pee over my body, i have worn it as long as possible. The first time was shortly after serving Princess at an event in DC. Princess sent me home (i live in Baltimore) with a plastic bag of Her golden water with orders to pour it over my head when i got home. The second i got home i set up the camera on a tripod so i could take a picture for Princess, knelt in the tub and proceeded to pour about a half gallon of the precious liquid over my head. Even cold and long separated from Princess, i was still so honored to be wearing her scent. i didn't wash it off until the morning before i left for work. i so wished i could have kept that scent longer.
My desire to be marked with Princess's scent, and Her creative way giving me a golden shower without even being present has help me come up with a wish that i will be sharing with Princess for the first time when She reads this. i have been thinking that it would be great to get some fancy perfume bottles and have Princess fill them for me with Her piss perfume. With these bottles of pee, i could spray Princess scent on my body like cologne and wear her mark as much as possible even when She isn't around. i do hope Princess finds this idea to Her liking. Of course if She is around, i always hope that She will just piss all over me. Even is She does it to me in my clothes, i would be so honored to carry her scent on me.
A more subtle yet long lasting experience with Princess and Her scent occurred at another weekend event. This was more of a camping event, and i spent the nights sleeping outdoors in the dog cage while Princess enjoyed the comforts of Her RV. The first night it rained quite heavily, and while the tarp covering the cage kept the rain at bay, it sure didn't stop it completely from coming into the cage. Now sleeping in a cold wet sleeping bag might not sound like a lot of fun to most of you, but for me it was a very enjoyable night. You see, Princess had saved several cups of Her pee that day awaiting for my arrival, and before sending me to my cage gave me one of the cups to poor into the bottom of the cage. So it was much more than rain water in my cage, i was sleeping in a pool of Princess Piss. Better yet my sleeping bag was absorbing Her wonderful scent so that i could completely envelope myself in it. To this day i sleep in that same sleeping bag every night and have yet to wash it. Of course the scent has faded almost to nothing, but i go to sleep every night with the peaceful knowledge that i am completely encased by Princess's essence.
Baptism by Piss
There is so much more to golden showers than just wearing the dominants scent as a territorial mark. For me it is a very spiritual experience and so illustrative of the role of the dominant woman and submissive male.
First of all look at the position the parties must be in. In order to be pissed on the submissive must be below the dominant. As powerful as Princess is, gravity is more powerful. A large part of the significance of golden showers is the towering over the submissive by the dominant that must exit. After all the submissive should be below the dominant in all aspects of life, so this position is a natural representation of the submissive's status.
Most people think of being pissed on as an act of humiliation and the acceptance of humiliation by a submissive from a dominant is such a great expression of devotion. Despite the fact that i love humiliation, i have never considered being pissed on by Princess or any of the dominant women i have played with to be humiliating. To me it is much more religious. To be able to accept a part of Princess from such a intimate location on Her body is an honor that i cherish. It is almost like baptism, being blessed with the liquid of a deity, only unlike a baptism which only occurs once in a lifetime, golden baptisms can occur as regularly as Princess desires.
Communal Wine
If being peed on is the baptism, then drinking Princess's pee is the partaking in the sacrificial wine. Many of the same elements that make being pissed on such a special bonding experience are also present in drinking Her sacred nectar, except that consumption requires an even deeper level of devotion. Being pissed on is merely a matter of letting the divine fluid wash over you, but drinking the juice of the fruit that is Princess, means taking something that was in Princess's body into your own. Much like the catholic belief in transubstantiation, the slave is becoming one with the Princess, by consuming something that was once Princess Herself.
i have had the pleasure of drinking several ladies' pee over the years. When we were out in bars and clubs, L loved to take my glass with her to the ladies room and refill it for me with her own special brew. When she returned the glass to me full of her hot piss, i would happily drink it down just like the cold beer that was in it before. In fact, the rest of the patrons couldn't tell the difference and thought's that exactly what i was doing, but L and i knew the decadent difference.
ML had her own special sexual application of pee play. My sex life with her consisted of her peeing into a glass, than having me masturbate into the same glass adding my cum to her piss. Once this was done, i was required to drink down the combined contents of our mixed juices. These were always special moments for me and more intense that any vanilla style sexual interaction.
The Useful Aspect of Pee Play
Up until now i have been focusing on the spiritual and emotional aspects of pee play, but pee play can also have a very useful purpose. The most common is the Mistress's use of the slave tongue in the role of toilet paper. Both L and V particularly enjoyed using me in this manner. V had no problems calling to me in a kink social setting that she needed her toilet paper in the bathroom and i would go running to her. And on numerous occasions both her and L surreptitiously pulled me into a public restroom to perform this role. Obviously, there is a very sexual nature to this type of service and rest assured my cleaning duties went well beyond making sure that my Mistress was clean. Usually they had to push me away as i would happily lick away all night if they let me. Sometimes when they were in a particularly playful mood, they would invite me into the bathroom before they started to pee, and have me kneel with my chin on the rim of the toilet between their legs. From this point blank vantage i could see, hear, and smell exactly what i was about to clean up.
i once read about a slave that was trained to be an all purpose anywhere urinal for his Mistress. The slave was trained to seal his mouth around his Mistress's pee hole so that she could relieve herself directly into his mouth without a drop being spilled. Then anytime she needed to go, if an adequate facility was not available, all she needed to do was order her slave under her skirt. Problem solved no fuss, no mess. For the longest time i have wanted to ask Princess to train me in a similar manner. The problem was i knew there was no way that my mouth would be allowed to come into contact with that most precious Princess Palace and so i never even mentioned it to Princess. However, Princess has recently acquired a device that may allow for the skirting of that issue, and i now have hope that this wish may come true yet. Stay tuned.
The Downside of Piss
Unfortunately, there is a negative aspect of pee play. Pee is messy and smelly, and while it is perfectly fine for a slave to wallow in mess and stench, it is certainly not OK for the Mistress to endure that. Slaves sacrifice, not Mistresses. It is this restriction that has limited my experiences with Princess. As i said before, i crave every precious drop of that special Princess liquid, so anytime the environment interferes is a major disappointment to me.
Princess's deviant creativity has a solution for this. Instead of fowling Her tub, the place most people use for piss games, Princess prefers those portable kiddie pools one can get at places like Target. This way, once She is done bathing her slave in piss, the pool can be discarded. No mess for Princess, and a clean tub for Her continued use. I have a fantasy that takes this one step further. i envision a hot summer afternoon. Princess and Her pretty girlfriends (why do hot chicks seem to always have other hot chicks around them?) lying in the sun wearing bikinis while i serve them wearing my own bikini. Princess orders me to set up the kiddie pool and get in it. Then led by Princess, each girl in turn pisses into the pool, and i get to spend the afternoon swimming in the piss of Princess and Her pretty pals.
Outdoor pissing is another solution to the mess problem. Of course good weather and a little privacy are usually needed. Mess is no concern when pissing on a slave outdoors. The worst may be that a little pee splashes or runs onto the Mistress's foot which can easily be cleaned up by a slave's tongue. Kink related camping retreats are great venues for outdoor pissing and the public exposure of the act adds to the emotional impact.
It was at such an event were i received my only direct golden shower from Princess. Princess had me lying face down naked in a very public field meditating on what it means to serve Her while She went off and socialized for an hour or so. While laying there many people walked by and some ladies openly discussed whether it was OK to piss on the slave in the grass. Of course none would actually do so without an owner's permission as that would just be inappropriate behavior. By the time Princess returned, slavish thoughts had filled every corner of my mind and i was deep in my mental Princess place. I don't remember Her saying a thing to me, but Her aura was overwhelming. i knew She was hovering over me, but had no idea what She was preparing to do until i felt that hot stream of Her wonderful pee hit my back. Earlier i discussed the spiritual nature of receiving a golden shower from the woman you adore and serve, but this was an emotional experience beyond anything you could imagine. My emotional state had me primed for Princess and to have my act of devotion and worship witnessed by so many of Her friends, peers, and colleagues created a religious experience like no other. Shortly after She was finished, she had to take me back to O/our quarters as i went into uncontrollable shakes and shivers as much from the complete emotional overload as any physical chill i was feeling from the cooling evening air.
Slave Pee
Pee play does not always have to involve the Mistress's pee. Deviant fun things can be done with a slave's pee as well. While these types of activities usually don't involve the same level of spirituality as events involving the Mistress's pee, they can still be quite fun. After all, not every act has to be so deep. While control and humiliation still usually play a significant role, trivial fun and games are important t too.
Strictly dictating when a slave can piss is a great way for a Mistress to exercise her control over a slave with very little effort on her part. C and L were both big fans of this. Both of them always required that i ask permission to use the bathroom whenever i was in their presence, and much to my dismay and discomfort did not always grant me permission to do so. Because of their training, to this day, i still usually ask permission from Princess to use the bathroom even though She has never explicitly required me to do so. For me it is just a natural act of submission.
One of C's favorite activities was to take me to the mall, and while shopping she would have me consume several large lemonades and others refreshing beverages. Long before we were done shopping, i would be begging to go to the bathroom which i was never allowed to do at the mall. When she was in a charitable mood, she would have me pee in my pants once we got into the parking garage. If i wasn't going anywhere that evening and she wasn't going to be around she would have me wear my wet pants all evening long. When she was in a more sadistic mood she would make me hold it for up to an hour after we got home, threatening severe punishments if even one drop leaked out. i didn't always make it to the time limit and of course would have to spend the rest of the day in my wet pants, after a severe beating of course. I must admit often times the beating was less painful than trying to hold back my very full bladder.
L loved all forms of animal play and whenever possible would make me pee outdoors like an animal. This required me to be on fours and to lift my leg against a tree or other post just like a dog. She also liked to deny me bathroom privileges like C, but was nowhere near as sadistic with her denial. Since my contact with her was often restricted usually she set certain times a day when i was allowed to use the bathroom if she wasn't around to give permission. That way she could still control me, without having to necessarily be present.
Diaper play is another way to incorporate slave pee into the process. i am not talking about adult baby play here, of which neither i, Princess (i think), nor any of the ladies i have played with have had any interest in. Even without the baby role play, diapers can be a very fun way for a Mistress to dominate and humiliate her slave. Once, Princess needed diapers for me for a shoot She had planned. She took me to the Target and asked the young lady behind the pharmacy counter, where the adult diapers were and how to size them properly for me, making sure to point out that i needed them. She made quite the production out of it. Technically, this may not count as pee play as pee was never actually involved, but only publicly talked about. No matter, it was still definitely one of the more embarrassing and enjoyable public moments with Princess.
While i have not experienced this to date, i have read and heard tales of Mistresses that require slaves to use diapers all the time. Often times they are given a weekly allotment and only allowed to change them at specific times. With limited diapers at their disposal and limited chances to change them, the slave must time their peeing carefully to avoid spending long periods in a wet diaper. Another option is to require slaves to change each others diapers. This adds a new level of humiliation by being exposed to another slave, but this is much preferable than the Mistress changing the diaper as the Mistress should never be expected to deal with a wet diaper.
Conclusion
i hope you have enjoyed my little dissertation on pee play. This just scratches the surface on the fun that can be experienced with pee. I intended this to be a breif overview of the various elements involved. Each of the above topics could be expanded into its own essay, especially those parts reflecting on the emotional bonding and servitude symbolism that this activity can represent. i would love to hear feedback from anyone's own experiences with this activity.
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Footnotes
[1] According to Wikipedia, this is the first use of the word "piss" on network television as well as the first time showing the act of urination.